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Seventeen. I guess I've finally turned that dreaded number. Now it seems so close before I turn 20. Bleargh. I've finally graduated from secondary school and hopefully I can make it to Meridian JC. Best of all, I think I've grown up.


I received birthday greetings the moment it was midnight. Sorry I couldn't reply your messages but now I wanna say a big thank you to all!!!! The irony was that I received messages from people whom I least expected to give me one. I weren't even close to them, I rarely talked to them, and even if I did, it was when I happen to be queuing up behind them in the canteen. On the contrary, the people I was closest to couldn't even afford a 5 cent sms with less than 20 characters in it? I'm not being perasaan by thinking that the whole world should wish me a happy birthday but at least my buddies should. I was waiting and waiting but I didn't receive any except one from one of them. It hurt me a little. Yes I did cry abit cause I am human afterall. But it's just so weird that no matter how much you care for someone, they might not be thinking of you even for a minute.

Anyway, the Meridians were sweet darlings. They suprised me with a cake and presents. It was sort of a joint birthday suprise for Melissa and me. By the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA!!!! She turns seventeen today and we made a pact to bully the rest of the class cause we're the eldest now. The cake says 'Happy Birthday Shamelissa' and we all thought that it sounded like Shame Lissa. Oh yes, it was my favourite Royal's Triple Chocolate Fudge cake.

Mastura actually came back to celecrate our birthday. Isn't she sweet? After 2 weeeks of her non-existence in MJC, I was so happy to see her that I screamed in her face when I saw her. No wonder Fana, Sarah and Sary were whispering the entire day before the suprise.

The birthday girls.

Colour bar. haha. I'm back to being black cause of playing soccer in the sun.

The gift the class gave to me. Yes I do care, darlings. Melissa got one that says 'Princess'.



Fana and Mas gave this to be. The card says 'Happy Birthday, my favourite kerbau'. Don't ask why kerbau cause it's really a long winded story that almost every other teacher in MJC asks when we're doing groupwork.

After the suprise, Sarah and Fana began chasing me with the cake. I warned them that the cake was expensive and don't waste it but noooooo... they decided to chase after me. And I fell. Guess what I got myself for my birthday? A sprained ankle. There goes my chance of playing goalie for today's match with RJC. That's why I'm at home alone now doing things I've been wanting to do since last week.


My ankle is not that big, okay? It's just super swollen and soft. It feels like a sponge.

Anyway, after the big hoo-hah that has been going on last week, I realize you can't cling on to the past. You will eventually reconcile and be friends again. But at times, you have to know that it isn't possible in all cases. Sure, I did reconcile with my daddy but I lost some friends at the same time. Nevertheless, you need to know what the opportunity costs are before you decide on something. And I know I did the right thing by letting go of people who I can't see eye to eye to. It's really no use trying to save a friendship that has no chance to survive.

People ask me why I can be so mean at times. The reason is that I choose my friends well. I go for people who are at the same wavelength as I am and people who I know I can hang out easily with. When you think you are friends but you end up not talking to each other for one hour despite being next to each other, I'm not too sure what kind of relationship that is. When you don't talk, you have tension. When you have tension, you have disagreements. And I suppose that's why I need to let go.

Someone once said to me, let the troubles of yesterday be gone forever. But if you can't then that's a sign. A sign that it's no use remembering their existence.

Trials and tribulations are a norm when living in Allah's world. But the biggest challenge is to keep the faith and remember the ones who loves you.