It is sad to see how long it is for two people to reconcile. Okay, reconcile is too strong a word. I prefer the term 'saying-hi-to-each-other-again'.

It's too hard to go back to where we began. I'm sorry.

I feel like talking about my inexistent love life. Again. Yes, I'm sorry for boring you guys with this topic that never seem to leave my head.

I was on Anak Melayu (AM for short and yes, I'm still there) and was just profile hopping. I came across this guy's profile which for the first time intrigued me, because at AM, you usually get the Mat that rides a kental mat rempit bike who doesn't even know how to craft out a proper sentence in English. Surprisingly, his profile was in perfect English and he write poetry on his AM blog. I was S-H-O-C-K-E-D. I mean, I do come across guys who write poetry in their blogs but most of them are crap. The kind of poetry people like Levan from Astroninja/Ronin (take your pick) would write. I went on to read his blog and I realised I get attracted to guys who can charm their way with words.

I wouldn't call them sweet talkers but more of linguistically inclined. All my life, I wished for a guy who can make me laugh, tell me that I'm beautiful subtly, and simply enjoys the Arts as much as I do. When I read that guy's poetry and blog entries, I felt that I've met the love of my life - online - and without even meeting him. You guys can laugh, yes. But you know how the very cliche line goes 'I loved you even before we met'? I feel just like that.

Don't get me wrong, I am not in love with that guy. I just have a clearer inkling of what the kind of guy attracts me. Some people turn me off with the way they write but others get me excited when they start writing. That's probably the reason why I had the shots for the other him.

My dream guy, you asked?

1. Charm his way with his flair of words
2. Make me laugh with witty and smart jokes
3. Enjoys reading like I do. A date with me is simple, take me to a library and recommend me books.
4. Enjoys music like I do. Take me to a record store and recommend me GOOD bands and I'll love you even more.
5. And of course, able to make intellectual conversations with me and not this:

Guy: ngah buat pe?
Me: ummm.. nothing much.. watching tv and talking to you. haha.
Guy: ohh.. tak kluar?
Me: no laa.. a bit lazy today..
Guy: Dah makan?

At this point in time, I close the MSN window and if it gets worse, I usually block him.

Anyway, I'd probably still be a spinster with 40 cats if I continue hoping for the emergence of that Dream Guy. How much must I lower my standards just to meet him?

Worse come to worse, I'll marry a rich Arab. No wait, Arabs only marry Arabs.

Heck, I'll earn lots of money and splurge it all on traveling and clothes. Yes. That sounds like a wonderful plan!