I had two beautiful people to accompany me study in school just now. Sari Idayu and Charlotte Chin. It's been a long time since I studied with someone, especially in school. It was usually outside of school, having coffee while finishing our assignments.

I had two different conversations with them.

With Sari, it was matters of the heart. In a way, we are similar. Sama tapi tak serupa. I don't want to say much but I realised I have been obsessed. Obsessed about the one person that I've been thinking about. Sari and I were listening to The Best I Ever Had by Vertical Horizon, and I asked her:

Me: If you really loved someone, would you be willing to let him go, even though he's the best you've ever had?

Sari: Yeah.. Of course. If it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be.

It got me thinking, yes it did. If it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be, eh?

Then Sari went to off and Charlotte joined me. She kinda changed the focus in my head. We were laughing our ass off how our parents can be so mean to each other although they once vowed to love each other till the end of time. How we handled it, and what stupid things we did to make them stay together. Now this brings me to Sari's point again...

If it's not meant to be, it's not meant to be.

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

I am known for being an escapist. And that is precisely the reason you don't bother about me anymore.

You're still the best I ever had.