So I was cleaning my room last week to prepare for Aidilfitri and I came across some really old photos. Well, not exactly really old, but old enough to make me feel as though it was 10 years ago. They were photos of my lower secondary school days. I was so naive, carefree and dumb back then. For one reason, I had really horrendous hair, as dark as coffee and my teeth were ugly. On the other hand, I was quite slim then. Oh yes, I was almost hot. Haha. Canoeing and running everyday helps you get fit.

Why was I dumb? I apparently cut the picture of my crush in Sec 1 out of the yearbook and put it in my wallet. And how big exactly was the picture? A quarter of the size of a 1 cent coin. How pathetic can I get? Apart from that, I was actually a lot more mean when I was younger. I had a blog, yes, but they were filled with vulgarities and most of time, I was dissing people that I disliked. So if you think I'm mean now, think again.

However, the best part of me being dumb back then was when I fell for a friend's best friend. He had the loveliest locks of hair, and big eyes with really long eyelashes. Plus, he has naturally shaped eyebrows. He was so charming, minus the fact that he was fat (he still is fat, but a lot fatter). What made me fell for him? I have no idea but we lived across each other and we loved cats. Our conversations were mostly about our cats. We always quarrel as to whose cat is cuter or fatter or smarter. We got so close that people were asking when were we getting together.

Sad thing was, we never did. In the later part of our friendship, I somehow found out he liked one of my close friends. What hurt me more was that he was just using me and playing around with my feelings. The last straw was when he refused to stand up for me when his friends did a really bad prank on me. You could not have imagined how crushed I was. It took me almost a year to get over him and find someone else to muse around with.

What made it worse? The girl was my bestest friend's girlfriend. Can you imagine how furious I was? It's enough that he nearly tore my heart open but to hurt my best friend is just unbearable. I became smart and realised he was not for me. And mind you, it was not puppy love.

The latest news I heard about him was that he is still dating the girl whom I was once friends with. Dating but not together yet. Apparently, he ditched his last girlfriend to court this girl. And hey ho guess what? People hate him now. When it was me whom he messed with, people sided me and said he was a jerk who wants to act like a Casanova. Now, even his closest friends disapprove of both him and the girl. They ask rhetorical questions like how can the girl fall for him and such.

Oh well, love is blind, they say. I sometimes ask myself why did I ever fall that idiotic good for nothing jerk. And now I'm asking the girl the same question.

To him: if your life is hell, congratulate yourself. It's called karma, honey.