Musings of A Girl Named Sharmee

Elysium Dance Concert

Finally, the day we dancers have been waiting for is over. No more late nights, no more swearing and cursing under my breath for not doing the steps properly, no more being angry and moody for no apparent reason (Insya Allah) and no more sleeping during lectures!

I'm glad it's over but I'm gonna miss all the girls. It was fun spending time with them. Somehow, I secretly enjoyed dancing (though it's not a secret anymore). Heck, I just love performing. I love putting on make up for the girls and myself. I loved dressing up to costumes I can't possibly wear out on the streets and I love the girls' nonsense. They added cheer to my dull life.

And of course, Cikgu Azmi who was so patient with me. I can't think of another teacher who can put up with my slowness and ignorance in dancing.

So, here are the pictures for your viewing pleasure!

I'm feeling the pinch. I'm about to explode. I'm going crazy. I'm already crazy. I'm in need of another time off from school. I'm going to have a mental breakdown.

Basically, I'm stressed.

For the first time in my life, I can really say I'm stressed. I want do so many things, but I forgot that this is JC, not secondary school. And the worst part is, friends you make in JC don't really help you to cope. They're too engrossed in their own lives that they created prior to meeting you. They just want to do things themselves. It's as though the friendship is superficial.

Since I've been too engrossed in school lately, I took time to have ice-cream with Sarah and Adam. Swirl Gelato is a great place to have some games and taste delicious customized ice-cream. The travel to Bukit Timah was really worth it.

That's how I cope with stress. Buy. Eat. Cook. Eat. Bake. Eat.

Anyways, Soiree was wonderful. Krankers danced till I almost fainted, and Butterfly did a marvellous job. And Femme Fatale was SPLENDID. I love Charlotee and Zahrah!



Watch this video and tell me you love it! Old school to the max!

It's been nearly 2 months of school, and I'm still not coping. I'm glad everything will be over by next week. Soiree tomorrow, then History Seminar on Saturday then finally dance concert next Thursday.

If there's only one thing I really need, it's ice-cream.

Heck. I'm going to have ice-cream with the Kool Kentals on Friday.

My entire Saturday night was spent with my favourite girls, Izzati, Edlin and Hannah. We were supposed to have dinner with the boys as well but only Oni turned up. The girls planned to have a slumber party so since Oni was the only guys that showed up, we invited him and he readily accepted.

NOT!!

If he did accept our invitation, he would probably be gay by now. Ho ho ho.

Talking about stuffs till 4 am was fun, reminiscing our old days and the many stupid things we did like going steady and that kind of crap. We were so carefree, doing nothing but trouble. After all, making trouble was explainable since we were “still young and confused and searching for our identity.”

Edlin won’t be back till the end of the year. We’re kinda sad cause it’ll be the first Aidilfitri without one of us. It’s a wonder how we’ve managed to keep our friendship lasting till now. It’s been 11 years, yes. More than a decade and we’re still hanging out with each other. Now that Edlin’s shifted back to Tampines, we can truly call ourselves childhood friends since this is where we grew up.

Edlin and I are taking our driving lessons this year, Insya Allah. And I hope that by the time I finish my A’s, I’ll be driving to Prom Night.

Growing up gets scary, but sooner or later, you’ll have to accept it. And knowing that friends like mine will always be there for me, I’m looking forward to growing old with them.

I know Valentine's Day isn't exactly the day for Muslims to celebrate, but at MJC, you just have to get in the mood with Friendship Day! The school was so colourful the minute I steppen in and it was a wonderful sight to see everyone smiling and laughing. For one day, nobody dreaded going to school. You'd the thinnest person in school if you missed Valentine's Day at MJC.

So anyway, this year, it was all about girlfriends. I met up with Sarah and Izzati to pass them the muffins I made. I'm glad I put the past behind me. Well, for now at least.

I'm just curious why some people had been the moodiest people in school yesterday.

So much for being happy.

Oh well, history seminar dry run tomorrow and I have to be at NUS by 10.30. It's time to make that horrible MRT trip down there again. I have a feeling we'll do good this year. Let's go MJ let's go!

I'm off to go swimming. Enjoy the weekend!

Over the weekend, an old makcik asked for my age.

I was stuttering to answer. I guess I still feel seventeen.

Eighteen marks the year of change.

And this year, I swear to cut down on vulgarities.

Let's take it one at a time, shall we?

I may not have gotten my birthday wish, but I think what I got was worth more than what I wanted.

I woke up at 3.30am with 9 new messages in my inbox. Two of which was from my bestie, Sarah. The first was a message with the lyrics of the birthday song. The second was even better. She sang to me! She sent an audio clip and I got to listen to her beautiful sexy voice again after a long, long time. So, thanks my darling!

At 5.45am, I met Fana and she gave me the first hug of the day! I felt so love. If you’re wondering why I went to school so early, it’s because of the CNY concert. I was, umm, performing. Heh. I was dancing with the MCS girls lah. Malay dance tau! Jangan main-main. It was kind of fun to look pretty for others to see. Photos will be up as soon as my laptop is done recovers.

Finally, lunch and dinner was superb. KFC for lunch with 3 nieces and 1 nephew and 2 sisters who dolled my face up with cake is too unforgettable. Tomorrow is going to be a more exciting day.

*grins widely*

50 more minutes for that last glimmer of hope. If all else fails, I’ll be dancing again at midnight.

P.S. Can you get allergic to chicken?

A friend whom I already consider a sister asked me if I was still waiting for a miracle.

And I said yes.

Thanks for the cake, 07A301. And to Farah and Yong Wen, thanks for the cake on my face.

Tomorrow's the official day. And I'll be spending some time alone.

Happy birthday Shamsydar Ani.

Today marks the official start of....

SHAMSYDAR IS THE QUEEN ON THE WORLD WEEK!!!

I shall not be an old hag and complain about my life, or any stress related issues. I shall be a very happy girl this week!

Two days away from being eighteen.

SOOOOOOO....

Don't make me angry or sad cause I wanna be a happy girl this week.

Even if it means I have to fake it. Ho ho ho.