Musings of A Girl Named Sharmee

Assalammualaikum.

Its that time of the year again when I decide what's been the talk of the year. From beauty products to people who were made famous, SHARMEE'S BEST OF 2006 will bring you back to what's been happening in the year 2006. Please do not be offended if you receive the awards which might not be in the good light. Accept it light-heartedly so that you can learn from the mistakes you have made. And of course, SALAM EIDUL ADHA to all my fellow Muslim friends!

FAVOURITE LOCAL ARTISTS
1. Electrico
2. West Grand Boulevard
3. Mistaken Identity
4. Plain Sunset
5. Tiramisu

If you haven't noticed, Ronin is not in the list because they are receiving another award. But if you are one of their groupies, I suggest you get your ass off my site.

FAVOURITE RADIO STATION
Power 98

Power 98 supports local musicians a lot more than other stations. It is indeed very crucial to give continous support to our own local talents because they are our very own people. Other stations, (I shall not mention the names) however, seem to air local and regional artistes when they are compelled to do so. So kudos to Power 98!!!

FAVOURITE STUDY LOCATIONS
1. Marine Parade Community Library
2. Temasek Secondary School Canteen AT NIGHT
3. KFC at Tampines st 11
4. Home
5. Pasir Ris Library

Marine Parade Library is the best location for me because they have super good seats and lots and lots of sunlight for you to study. You just need to buy a drink at Cafe Galilee to last you for the entire 5 or 6 hours of studying there and you won't be disturbed. Go for night study if you are a Temasekian but SIT ALONE. If you start sitting with people like Nazurah and Pamela, you'll end up fighting with them about Joakim being a horrible singer. Don't go to Pasir Ris library unless you want to be stared at by the barista. Besides, its full of screaming kids.

FAVOURITE SUBJECTS
1. Malay
2. Mathematics
3. Additional Mathematics
4. History
5. Social Studies

The subjects above is ranked by how easy it is to get a distiction. Malay is the easiest, followed by Maths and so on. If you haven't noticed, I suck at Sciences, although Physics is fun.

FAVOURITE WHITENING PRODUCT
1. Garnier Light
2. Olay
3. Follow me
4. Ginvera
5. Nivea

Garnier Light is the best product ever! I went for golf during the canoeing trip to Sebana Cove and got bloody dark. But after 3 days of continous use of Garnier Light, my face was back to my normal shade.

BLOGS OF THE YEAR
1. www.sharmee.blogspot.com
2. www.xiaxue.blogspot.com
3. www.fityan-ghufran.blogspot.com
4. www.ryc.org.sg
5. www.ummahfilms.blogspot.com

Go ahead and laugh at the number 1 blog of the year. I placed my blog first cause I realized it created quite a bit of controversy over the entire year. Although I deleted the past contents, I hope people will continue to visit my blog.

TOP 5 COUPLES OF 2006
1. Izzati and Taufiq
2. Nafisah and Mahdi
3. Hanani and Radzi
4. Farah and Benny
5. Farahyn and Khairul

As expected, Izzati and Taufiq tops this list once again. They have been together for more than 3 years and they are still going strong!!! Yeah girl!!! Farahyn and Khairul dropped down to the bottom cause their relationship has been on the rocks lately. As for Farah and Benny, you are the cutest couple. Both are equally insane and wacky!

TOP 5 MOST TALKED ABOUT PEOPLE
1. Alia
2. The bouncer at SMASH'D
3. Sarah being with Sheikh
4. Miss Yati
5. Mr Jared Oh

I aparently forgot the name of the bouncer, so I apologize. But I think alot of people were talking about Alia and her near-death experience. HAHA. Whatever it is, don't try to kill yourself and tell the entire world about it. It spells out one thing: ATTENTION SEEKER

TOP 5 EXCUSES NOT TO HAND IN YOUR HOMEWORK EVEN IF O LEVELS IS NEAR
1. I slept late to study so I forgot to do the homework
2. I lost the homework amongst my notes
3. I went for night study yesterday so the teacher didn't allow me to do the homework
4. Chocolate Day took most of my time
5. There was homework?

These excuses, my friends, are not mine alone. I used excuse number 2 alot of times. Excuse number 4 was used my a friend who took advantage of the situation. BLOODY toot to that 'friend'. Excuse number 5 was heard only once. Haha.

TOP 5 REASONS TO SLEEP IN CLASS
1. Catch up on the sleep you lack cause you were revising your work last night
2. Catch up on the sleep you lack cause you were revising your work last night
3. Catch up on the sleep you lack cause you were revising your work last night
4. The lecture is killing you
5. You don't understand the need OF UNDERSTANDING CONCEPTS THAT THE TEACHER IS EXPLAINING

Conclusion: DON'T SLEEP IN CLASS YOU LAZY ASS!!! Listen! That's the only way for you to ace you O's!!!

TOP 5 WAYS TO AVOID THAT F9
1. Do your homework everyday and hand them in on time
2. Listen to your teachers. Their words are very crucial.
3. Sleep later so you can study a bit more
4. Have breakfast so you will be alert in class
5. Don't watch every movie that is released. Stop watching stupid shows.

Basically, cut down on your social life.

TOP 5 REASONS TO BE FICKLED MINDED ON YOUR POST SECONDARY EDUCATION
1. Your senior is trying to psycho you
2. Your brother is trying to psycho you
3. Your teachers are trying to psycho you
4. Your friends are trying to psycho you
5. You end up being a psycho cause your dad is also trying to psycho to be a BLOODY DOCTOR

Its all in the mind, bebeh!

TOP 5 REASONS TO COME HOME LATE, AND I REALLY MEAN LATE
1. I was studying in school
2. I went for study group
3. I met up with my teacher to clarify my doubts
4. I was out with Ajo
5. I went to see the sheep at the mosque

Reasons 1 to 3 are pre O level while 4 and 5 are post O level. I came home at 0330 hours one Friday night, or rather Saturday morning cause I was out with my brother.

TOP 5 REASONS TO TELL YOUR FRIENDS ABOUT MY BLOG
1. She was dissing about you know who!!!!
2. She blogs as though she owns the universe
3. She blogs about funny things
4. I think she is a misfit
5. She spreads dakwah but she supports local music!

Friends, please do not do number 1. Instead, do number 5!!!!

That's all folks! Enjoy the tips and have a blessed 2007 and Eidul Adha!!!!

That's Mistaken Identity and me. Can you guys believe that I was the only one from Friendster who came? I felt so honoured. And the others call themselves fans? My foot! Go continue listening to Ashlee Simpson and Simple Plan laa. I made myself available although I was supposed to go for ITQAN training.

But then again, with me the only one around, I got a fair bit of attention. Haha. When I left after getting all their autographs and loads of pictures, they all said 'Bye Sham!!! See you around!' Not just the band but their friends as well. How sweet can these people get, man! I'm so glad I came cause they really changed my mindset and removed the stereotypical thinking I once had about certain people.

Great job, Mistaken Identity!!!

Btw, they are having an album showcase at Orchard Library on 2o January 2007. Please do come down if you can.

Till we meet again, salaams to all!

Peace to all my fellow friends.

I am so happy with myself. I wore my Grad night outfit to MUIS. HAHA. Yes. How dumb can I get? I could have worn it to town when I go shopping or perhaps the band concert but I decided to wear it MUIS. Hardyharhar.

Anyway, Bro Helmy is really keen on the idea of the YIPee thingy. I'm scared, really. Cause we don't have much people on the team and the only people who knows what is really happening are Sis Dian, Bro Helmy, Sis Nur, Bro Firdaus and myself. Bro Helmy and Sis Nur won't even be directly involved cause they are just supervising. Three people working on this big thing? I don't think so. But I do hope that more people will join us eventually. I do know of some people who want to help us but they just have other important commitments. So dudes and dudettes, get back to me if you wanna join us.

I bought some tops from the night bazaar at Tampines Interchange and they are so bloody nice and cheap!!! I'm wearing one of them tomorrow to band concert. After the concert tomorrow, I have to rush to Ghufran cause I promised the Fityanees I'll send them off before they go to Perak for KRC 4. You know what, these few days, I've been going out in the evenings. Haha. Might as well enjoy the freedom before school starts. Oh yeah, I'm going to MJC for three months. Hooray! (I can bet you that Faizal is saying "Told you so!")

I'm off to ITQAN Camp at Alkaff Mosque from Friday to Sunday. I managed to steal some time off at night on Saturday so that I can go to MI's album showcase. I'm sure Ustaz will understand cause this is part of my 'job'. Haha. Can't tell you guys much about that. Anyway, I'm looking forward to Saturday cause I'll be interviewing them as well. Yayness.

Today, meeting again with the YIPee people at 6pm. Why so late, you ask? Cause they are working people. Yes. I'm friends with people who already have proper jobs. And one of them is working at St Patrick's as a CDO or something around that line.

Aight. I'm bloody hungry. What's for lunch?

Assalammualaikum.

Why is it that when you do something right for once, people are willing to disown you and they keep insisting that what you did was wrong? It never came across my mind that leaving something that Allah forbids is wrong. I can't please everyone, yes, but I must please Allah. Each time I do my best to improve myself and change for the better, other people keep dampening my spirits.

I want to leave the bad moments I never wish to see again. I want to leave the days that I consider Jahilliyah. I want to be the person that I am truly meant to be. I do not want to continue living in a dillusional world unlike some people I know. I have finally found myself. And I found myself amongst people who are like me, people who want to make this world a better place. Why do you hate me so much?

I never thought myself as a competition to you. Never. As a matter of fact, I look up to you. I used to idolize you, talk about you to my friends who think I am irritating. And I was so proud when someone actually said we were similar. I was so proud to be like you cause it showed that you influenced me positively. Why? Why now? Why did you say all the things you said? What have I done wrong????

Yes, I lied to you. But it was a white lie. I didn't want you to know the main reason I left that job. I didn't want you to create a big hoo-hah out of it.

Right now, all I can do is pray. Pray to Allah that you didn't really mean the things you said and that you will eventually come to you senses. Yes. COME TO YOUR SENSES. Continue being this way and the girl who supposedly changed you will NEVER come back to your arms.

People keep saying that their problems are bigger than others, yes. But for once, think of others, and not yourself. It's bad enough that we both have a useless man as a father. A father who didn't even contact their children when he wanted to remarry but expect them to visit his newborn child.

For your info, I have ever thought of living with that man. My life will be worst if I go there. Say what you want. Keep throwing harsh comments at me. Keep saying that I am an embarassment to the family just because I am bloody fat. Do what you want. I wouldn't want to give a damn either because you don't give a damn about me either. All along, you put on a mask in front of me just to please ibu. Unless you tell me what I did wrong until I deserve that kind of criticism and horrible words, I'll just pretend nothing happened.

Some of you might say that's not what I should do, pretend that everything's normal. But that's what I've been doing for the past few years. I always pretend that everything's normal because the only way to solve problems is to have both parties willing to change. And that can only happen if the two parties TALK.

If I am such an embarassment, kill me. I dare you. Kill me. Get rid of me from your bloody life. Easy. Problem solved. I haven't had it, huh? Sure. That's why I'm fat. I feel happiness when I eat. Rather than I starve and let all the good food to waste while people in Afghanistan have no food to eat, I eat.

Anyway, you should be thanking Allah that I'm not one of those girls who shave their eyebrows till they look as though they are permanently petrified, hanging around with guys as though I'm married to them, smoking 5 boxes a day and happily donning tattoos. Thank God for that.

Right now, the only true peace I find is when I'm with my YLN and Fityan friends. Somehow, my friends make a better family. Afterall, friends are family you choose.

Salams.

Tomorrow's my last day. Hooray.

Anyway, I have been feeling a feeling that I've so long wanted to feel. Haha. If it confuses you, that's good. It's been close to 2 years since I've felt like this. God, please help me.

May peace be upon all of you.

2 days of pure excitement, fun, maturity and being the youngest. The Retreat was super awesome!!!

We discussed loads and loads of things. Things that I have always wanted to bring up to the authorities, things that I've been talking to myself about, things that at people don't quite care about at times. But mostly, we were talking about youths. Malay youths. You could never imagine how ecstatic I was. Cause I could so relate to the issues!!

I think I talked A LOT during the two days. I was making a lot of noise and crappy suggestions. Okay, at least I thought they were crappy. Everyone was asking me to shut up and keep quiet. OKAY. I was exaggerating. And I called the underclass the most horrible name I could ever think of. No wait. It wasn't the worst. I called someone else a much more horrible name.

ANYWAY, the brothers and sisters there welcomed me with open arms and there were very caring and loving. I swear this is the best youth related activity I have ever been to. Perhaps its because the participants are matured with alot of experience under their belt and they have seen IT. I mean, I have a very matured mind, which sometimes can get too matured, and maybe I wanna grow up. Seriously speaking, I don't like being called a kid. I wanna grow up cause I want to see my dreams take place. I want to see what kind of an adult I become.

So with my commitment being back to Ghufran and the community, I have to change my lifestyle. So I'm quitting my job this Sunday. I can't bear to be in an environment where people are so different from me.

Suprisingly, Ustaz Fairuz is also Ajo's friend and he said I am exactly like Ajo. HAHA. Laugh. I SAID LAUGH. Yeah. I don't know if it was a compliment or not. But let's all be positive and take it as a compliment.

Wokays, I need to go. Watch CSI and then sleep. Work tml. Bleargh.

Peace.

Peace.

I am so very happy. Wanna know why?

I got invited to Mistaken Identity's album showcase.

Haha. I am so bloody happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, I'm off to Johor tomorrow with some people for a conference. It's been a long time since I went for this sort of thing. K. I want to spend time thinking of who to bring for the album showcase.

I AM ONE HAPPY WOMAN!!!!!!!!!!!

How to be a Waitress

Tip 1:
Always have a fake smile on your face. You would not want to give the most sincere smile to fucking bitches and spoilt brats who think they rule the universe just because they have a country club membership.

Tip 2:
Wear VERY comfortable shoes cause you stand a lot and walk alot.

Tip 3:
Do not ever slouch while walking and never ever drag your feet cause customers will get irritated and so will your colleagues.

Tip 4:
Please take good care of personal hygiene. Customers will get disgusted if you dig your nose and then send food over to their table.

Tip 5:
NEVER EVER TRY TO MAKE FRIENDS WITH COLLEAGUES WHO ARE YOUR ABOUT YOUR AGE. I tried and now the fucking guy thinks I fucking like him. And he's only fifteen. Bleargh! Pick someone your age, dude. FYI, I only go for older men and you have disgustingly horrible body odour. DEODARENTS WERE INVETED FOR A REASON.

So yes. I have started working at Serangoon Gardens Country Club. A one hour bus ride from my place but the money is fucking attractive for someone who only received $150 per month as her allowance. Now I am like earning $48 per day. Times 30 days and that's what I'll be receiving per month. Then I'll be at Orchard Road, but perhaps the whole of Singapore, looking for cheap bargains so I can update my fucking dull and black(literally) wardrobe.

Although I have temporarily lost my social life, I don't give a damn. Ajo talked to me the other night and he was telling me to learn what life is actually about, so when I go to poly (sorry Faizal), I won't take advantage of things. But he managed to psycho me into saving up to take bike license so both of us can ride vespas and swap them around. Haha.

Anyway, if you people are thinking of checking this blog everyday, I apologize cause I won't have as much time as I had last month. I am a "working" woman now and I need rest. Haha. By the way, I'll be receiving my first paycheck tomorrow and I am going to buy myself a pair of ballet Crocs!!!! Screw you if you hate them.

Hey MOD-CARENA!!!!

May peace be upon you.

After an absence for about a week or so, I certainly have loads to update. Last Sunday, I went for the job interview as a waitress at Serangoon Garden Country Club. I screwed it up. Although the job was easy; clear plates and fill glasses with water, I had a tough time. I keep dropping chopsticks and other cutlery but I didn't drop any plates, thank god for that. And Ajo's boss had a great time bullying me, asking me to fill a bucket with the entire contents of the swimming pool and also telling me that my job was actually to wash plates. BLEARGH! At least now I don't need to do that horrible job. I applied for Golden Village again and now I'll just wait.

The next day, I went for the canoeing trip to Sebana Cove at Johore Bahru. Sarah and me were the only Sec 4s who turned up for hte trip. It was ironic because both of us aren't exactly your examplary canoeists. We rarely go for training, we skip the runs we usually had to do and we totally trashed the competitions. But then again, I wanted to be there at the trip with my fellow juniors because it is my last year and that was the only way for me to show that I have never really given up on the canoeing team.

Anyway, we had SUPER D-DUPER LOADS of fun on the first day. After hiking up some highland (I have no fucking idea what hill it actually was), we went for an obstacle race. It wasn't raining when we started but it began to pour when we happily completed the first obstacle. Guess what we did next? WE CONTINUED PLAYING IN THE RAIN!!!!! I was having so much fun with Christopher and Ashraf sliding down the puddles of water and mud. I got so terribly wet and muddy and dirty I forgot I that I am a girl. Anyway, that muddy and dirty me caught the attention of the facilitators cause the next thing I knew, they were happily calling me 'Sham' just like the rest of the canoeists.

Oh my god, the dinner was FANTASTIC. Just as marvellous as the lunch. It was an all-you-can-eat buffet and almost all of us had three helpings, except for Jerry who said she was on a diet. But of course, the winner of buffet eating was Connie. She ate 3 full helpings of whatever there was on the buffet table. I totally salute that girl. And yet, she can fucking maintain her weight. I felt like stealing her metabolism rate.

After dinner, Mr Iskandar said we were going for a solo night walk. I was so bloody excited cause I haven't experienced it yet. It was all so anti climatic when we ended up going into the Haunting Forest. The first time I entered the forest, Sarah was clinging on to me like a baby koala. I was leading the whole group cause apparently, the other 3 group members of mine decided to close their eyes. I was the only one with eyes open and it was pitch black. I had a hard time draging 3 people behind me and trying to feel my way out of the "forest". It wasn't that scary, really. It's all in the mind, bebeh. But the second round time, Boon How clung on to me. He was screaming "Don't let me go Sham!!! I very scared!!! Don't let go of me!!!" Can you believe it, a tall and brave looking guy said that to a girl who was like a head shorter than him? I had fun telling people what he said inside the the "forest".

The next day, breakfast was as delicious as dinner. We went for water rafting after breakfast where each group had to build their own raft using the materials given. I didn't go down the water cause I didn't want to dirty the only tudong I was left with. But I had fun screaming for the team and asking Mr Anthony Ho to keep quiet cause he was telling me to shut up. Haha. My team didn't win cause the raft was horribly designed by yours truly.

At night, we went for the Fireflies Tour and it was amazing. The fireflies were so cute!!! And there were lots and lots and lots of them. We had fun trying to catch those cute insects. By the way, fireflies are the only insects that I shall ever dare to touch and love. We had an emo-fied session after the tour where teachers talked about how we progressed as a team and all that. I also did my fair share of addressing to team about my past experiences. One thing you guys must not do is to give up. Keep the canoeing spirit alive my enduring all the tough training and never say die. However hard training is, keep going even if you feel like killing yourself. Okay, at some point of time, you might need a break but just don't quit canoeing.

Yesterday, I went for the PSL Year End Camp for a while and they did quite a good job, from what I saw. Keep up the good work, guys!